Friday, February 29, 2008
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Monday...a nice, quiet, boring day. The only one this week. I needed a refresher day...it was perfect.
Tomorrow I have so much work to do and no one to watch the kids because my cousin has inteviews throughout the day. I need to cram in 5 hours of work into a 2 hour naptime. AHHHH! The insanity should stop soon, I hope. I think I'm just feeling so stressed because I'm out of my routine and am fitting in work stuff in every nook and cranny. If my cousin gets a job soon, I'm not sure what I'm going to do. This, too, will pass!!! If busy-ness is the worst of my issues right now, especially because I'm working and able to earn money to keep Mike's stress level down, than I need to keep quiet and not complain. I just needed to log this crazy week because it has felt like a blur.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
Recently I've been thinking about the future. Many of you have asked, so I decided to blog where I am in my current thinking of extending our family. For as far back as I can remember, I always assumed I'd have a few kids and adopt a few kids. Likely being a foster parent somewhere along the way. Mike didn't share that vision, so fostering and adopting may or may not ever be in the cards for us. He has always been fine with 2 kids, without adopting, I felt better about 3-4. I've always seen myself with lots of kids. I don't see the momentary chaos of the pre-school years as much as I see Mike and I, old and gray, doing big family dinners and holidays with lots of kids and grandkids everywhere.
Whenever I share that idea, I get lots of feedback. Positive and negative, but everyone has an opinion. As soon as Kaylin was born, I had it in my head that we would wait until Ryan was in school before having #3, especially considering that Mike would need that long to be open to whether or not he even wants a third Roose running around. So we have time to discuss and agree on what we'll be comfortable with. A friend of mine who has 4 kids under 4 years old (with no twins!) mentioned that she doesn't "feel done" and that describes me exactly. I just don't feel done. Does that make sense?
Now that I can really see Kaylin's personality coming through, I'm realizing how alike she and Ryan are. Of course, she's much more sensitive and is already becoming a girlie girl, but I see some major similarities. For instance, they both love routine, like tidiness, wake up happy (and even each sing when they wake up), they're both friendly and outgoing to strangers and warm up to others quickly, they have what I see as "first born" characteristics where they like order, they want things done a certain way or want to sit in a certain spot to put their shoes on, stuff like that, along with so many other little things that are escaping me just now.
I hear people say that they thought they had the parenting thing down to a science until their second born came along. I've also heard people say that they thought they were the best parents ever until their third came along, then realized how little control they actually had. Kids can turn out totally different with the same two parents. But mine seem very similar so far. This sounds weird, but I'm thinking it's my turn to have a strong willed little rebel if we have another. Or a shy guy that gets lost in the mix because Ryan and Kaylin have such big personalities. That's my first concern, and I feel totally petty even saying it publically.
All that said, I'm starting to see the effects of my kids growing up and playing together. Ryan is even starting to help out around the house. ("playing" with the vacuum and sucking up crumbs under the high chair, setting the table or putting his laundry away is all less that I have to do!) I watch friends with older kids who do chores and contribute to the household, play together, don't need to be entertained or carried around and who don't say, "Mommy? Mom-mmmmmeee? MOMMY!!" all day long. This is a phase. I get that.
Being in this phase is just tough sometimes. There are days that I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Not that I want this time to go quickly...someone smack me for even inferring that! Someday soon, Kaylin won't let me eat her alive with kisses and Ryan will be too cool to sit on my lap while watching a movie. Kaylin will get her balance and won't look like Frankenstein (she's walking 95% of the time now, by the way) and Ryan won't need supervision to play in the front yard with his friends. I love my kids, right where they are. Today. I want to soak in every moment and remember every detail. So for now, I guess we're just happy with the four of us and don't need to make any other decisions just yet. Not yet.
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Monday, February 18, 2008
- Kaylin has spent 80% of today finally walking. She took a break from walking when she didn't feel well the last couple of weeks, but she's been all over the house today. She'll usually walk when prompted, but she has seriously spent all day walking whether we're watching or not. When we pulled her in the wagon when we went around the block tonight, she was whining and I asked if she wanted to walk? She held my hand for a little bit, then let go and walked alone for the length of 4 houses, only falling twice. She even bent down to pick up a rock and said, "Hee-oo" (see a few bullet points down for explanation on that one)
- Speaking of not feeling well, for some reason, she threw up in her crib during her nap yesterday. Then she was fine. We just can't get a healthy break around here. The only weird thing she ate at lunchtime was orange slices, so I'm wondering if she's too young for or allergic to oranges?
- For the last several days, she's had re-appearing spots/a rash around her mouth. It looks like acne, but I can't figure out if it's a reaction to something she's eating or what. It's very sporatic. I made an appointment with the doctor tomorrow to check it out.
- **2/19 Dr update - Kaylin is 24 lbs 12 oz and in the 50-75% for weight and 33 inches tall and 75-90% for height. The Dr gave her a breathing treatment today, which she bawled through for 15 minutes, and it hardly helped her sound better. We got Singular for her cough at night and an antibiotic for her face rash, which has now spread to just below one of her eyes. The Dr told me what it is, but I forget...nothing serious, though, meds will clear it up. As a precaution, she also wants me to get an ultrasound on her hips to make sure they're growing properly. No rush, just whenever I get around to it. (Apparently there aren't many 1 year olds who do the splits and it has them all puzzled.)
- Kaylin actually went poo on the potty after bathtime last night. (she only ever goes potty ON the potty about 1/2 the time anymore) I think it was a coincidence and I'm SO thankful that she waited 5 minutes instead of doing it IN the tub.
- She also tells us when she goes poo now. (sorry this is gross for most of you) She'll come up and say, "Mommy...pee-ew poo poos!" It's hilarious.
- I think I've mentioned this before, but she says, "I love you" whenever she gives kisses. She thinks they go together...kisses and saying, "I ya yooo."
- When she has something on her hand or finds something small on the ground, she'll hold her hand up and said, "Hee-oo, hee-oo!" (imagine "here" from a kid who can't say her R's...but she only has this impediment with this word. She says R in every other word)
- This morning, she asked for a bow for her hair and when I picked out a white one, she started throwing a fit saying, "nooo...NOOOO!" I pointed to the other white bow and she smiled and said, "Yeah..." Now she's picking which accessories she wants?!?!?
- She's been a total Daddy's girl recently. (it was bound to happen, it just came on suddenly last week) I think it might be because he's been home since Thursday, mostly sick in bed, and she's eating up this extra time at home.
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Friday, February 15, 2008
Anyway, I couldn't go to sleep with out officially announcing to the world (if not to my baby girl)...
~~ H A L F Y ~ B I R T H D A Y ~ K A Y L I N ! ! ! ! ~~
"Hmmm...I'm one and a half, now how do I show that on my fingers?"
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Sunday, February 10, 2008
- Kaylin's really into whispering lately. And the other day, a friend commented that she has a really quiet cry. She might just be a quiet girl; time will tell. Instead of her cute, "Yeah!" that she did for a couple of weeks, she now whispers, "yeah" when she agrees with something. Sometimes, I literally can't even hear her. "Do you want some milk?" "yeah..."
- I finally figured out what she means when she whispers, "hess, hess." I think it means, "watch" as in "Mommy, watch this." She'll say, "hess, hess, LA LA LA LA LA LA LA" or "hess, hess..." then walk across the room. It's finally apparent that she says it just before she's going to perform some cute act.
- I'm so in the habit of reminding Ryan to say, "Yes, Mommy" when I tell him to do something, that I started accidentally saying it to Kaylin. So now she will easily repeat, "Mess, Mommy." I guess it's better to start the habit young!
- Mike let her loose on the playground down the street from our house a few weeks ago. Now that it's been nice again these last few days, we've gone down there and she crawls around in the woodchips and all over the place, getting filthy. She loves playing on the huge contraption, though. She still crawls around in the backyard, too. The dirty patio, the wet grass...it's an anal mother's nightmare. I've had some nasty stains to get out of the knees of her pants. We've also had some near-splinters in her hands from the park.
- I bought some teeny rubber bands to try to make pig tails in Kaylin's hair. Man, those things are a chore! I got one in the other day and covered it up with a bow. It stayed in all day, so I'm finally at a point where I can play around with "doing" her hair. Fun times ahead!
- Almost everything she eats is with a spoon these days. She's getting really good! And it's so wonderful to have free hands during meals and snacks. She even eats chicken noodle soup. It's pretty impressive. She no longer favors her left hand, but uses both, like most toddlers do.
- Kaylin's newest thing (since being sick) is that she hardly eats anymore. I refuse to be a short order cook, so I'll give her a few choices and if she doesn't eat what she's given or another choice (usually an easy last alternative, like a banana) then she doesn't eat. When I was sick, nothing tasted good, either, and I finally figured out that I was so light headed and weak because I was barely eating. Oops! She's drinking a ton of milk, though, and she can eat as much as Mike for breakfast, so she is actually consuming some calories. Lunch and dinner, she mostly just picks and pushes food around her plate.
- Also, in the last week, she's stopped walking as frequently. When she falls, she bursts into tears, so I don't know if she's getting frustrated or still isn't feeling well and cries because...well, falling hurts when you're sick.
- When Mike takes the kids to get the mail after work, Ryan rides his new bike with training wheels and Kaylin usually rides in the wagon. Well, I took them the other day, and she begged to get on Ryan's old tricycle. Her feet don't reach the peddles, but she sat and balanced herself the entire trip around the block to get the mail. (I pushed and steered her with the long handle on the trike)
- Kaylin's definitely going to be more sensitive than Ryan. When I speak firmly to her or discipline her, she always cries...and her cry kills me. What's so horrible about it is that she tries desperately NOT to cry at first. She looks away, purses her lips, and fights back tears for a full 20-30 seconds before she just can't handle it anymore and she breaks down in her quiet little cry. Don't get me wrong, her face is still all contorted, like she's wailing, so you know she's genuinely sad. It's so hard to consistently stick to my guns and continue with the punishment by not coddling her, but all I want to do is scoop her up and comfort her. She's just so sweet. I need to make a conscious effort not to condition her to that response. "I cry, Mom comes running." She could train me like a dog in no time!
- Since I've been waking Kaylin up many mornings, I'm discovering that she's a morning person, just like Ryan. She hardly wakes up cranky. Usually, she'll stretch, smile, and either point to her mouth and say, "eat?" (she thinks that is the sign for "eat" since I went through a phase of doing that at mealtimes), ask for Daddy or "Rya" or say, "Ba-bye ba-da!" (bye-bye blanket)
- Ryan's doing great on the Accountable Kids program. He still has bad days sometimes, but our house is so much more peaceful and I am so much calmer than ever before. And he feels so proud of himself for doing his "chores" throughout the day. He's even in the habit of handing me a ticket when he wants to watch t.v. He hardly needs any prompting anymore.
- I'm finally back on the bandwagon to teach Ryan to read and he fought it at first, but is back to loving it. What he likes best is the end of the lesson when he gets to write on the dry erase board. He's getting really good at the letters we've worked on so far. Along those same lines, I introduced him to a learning book where he can practice drawing the line from one end of the "maze" to the other and he mastered each one flawlessly, completing the maze and turning the page to do the next one, page after page, I was so proud of him.
- Ryan figured out a few months ago that his grandparents are my mom and Mike's parents and he is amazed. Recently, when I get off the phone, he'll say, "Was that your mom? Did you call your mom; Grandma Cindy?" Then last night, he asked if Grandpa is Mike's dad.
- After that, Ryan announced that he has a little boy in heaven and that his name is Sly. He asked if tomorrow, when it's summertime, we could go meet him. I let him know that he wouldn't get to meet his little boy until he was big and tall like Daddy and he's out of school and married. A few minutes later, he said that Sly has 2 little sisters in heaven with him. His sister's name is Jack. I asked, "What's his other sister's name?" He said, "Sly." I said, "So Sly has a little sister named Sly?" He looked at me with a serious face and said, "Yes, Mommy. In heaven, the little babies are mostly named Sly."
- For Christmas, my grandmother (who has decided that Ryan is a genius) bought Ryan his first video game. Instead of getting him a V-smile which is for ages 3-6, she got him the 6 year + version. He plays it as best he can, but a lot of the games involve spelling or reading and, well, he's NOT SIX!!! So the poor kid can barely play it. He doesn't know what letter is missing from the "F_OG" little green animal.
- I picked him up from the gym Friday and he called me over to show me that he was doing an activity on the computer, properly using the mouse and everything, pointing and clicking the right areas to fill color in on a picture on the computer screen. My kid knows how to use a mouse?!?!!? And what's more...he learned this at the gym daycare?
- On Wednesday, Mike had a meeting at lunch and told Ryan that he wasn't coming home. A little later, Ryan told me that when he grows up and Daddy is a little boy that when Daddy says, "Ryan, are you coming home for lunch?" he would say, "Yes, Daddy, I'm going to come home every day for lunch." Then he announced that they're going to work together and Daddy's going to work over here and he's going to work over there (pointing to the left and to the right) of his chair.
- When we're not around, Ryan pulls chairs up to the counter, climbs up, and gets his own plates and vitamins now. I think it makes him feel like a big boy that he doesn't need to ask for our help.
- Speaking of independence, he's able to buckle his own seatbelt now. It's so nice to have only one kid to buckle in and get out of the car. Not only that, I've made him responsible for carrying his own backpack to and from the house and to and from the car into school, so I have even less in my hands. (remember, I'm still carrying 22 lb Kaylin and a diaper bag, purse, and whatever else needs to be carried)
- Friday at Trader Joe's, a nice man asked Ryan's name while we were in line. Instead of telling him, he said, "R...Y...A...N." I had no idea he could spell his name!!!! When I asked him again when we got home, he also spelled his last name. He's learning all of these things at school and I had no idea. I've seriously got to teach this kid our phone number for emergencies. He's memorized scripture at Sunday school, he announced last week that there are 66 books in the Bible, he can certainly learn his phone number.
- Later that night, my mom was coming over to babysit and he explained to me several times what would happen when she arrived. Every situation involved him telling him something (that he thought was fun or exciting) and her reacting by gasping (which of course, he demonstrated by inhaling all of the air in the room) and she'd respond by saying, "WOW Ryan! That's so great!" or something like that. It was so sweet. He was so excited that she was coming over that every 15 minutes or so, he'd come up with a new, "When Grandma gets here..." situation.
(Ryan says something to me and Kaylin starts saying a string of her own words)
Ryan..."Kaylin, I'm talking...PU-LEASE don't talk."
Kaylin..."Bada bah boo milt Raya."
Ryan..."KAYLIN...it's my turn. Please don't TALK!"
Ryan..."KAY-LIN!!!" That's usually when I jump in.
(Ryan's standing next to Kaylin in her high chair)
Ryan..."You can't have a bite of Daddy's cookie until you're done with your dinner."
Kaylin..."Too-tee." (leaning in closer to Ryan to instigate a fight)
Ryan..."Not until you finish dinner."
Kaylin..."Too-tee!" (almost touching noses now)
Ryan..."KAYLIN!" (it always ends with Ryan's ultimate frustration)